Man, know thyself. ~ Socrates
Who am I? Who are you?
Through my adult life I have been defined by many things:
My career. My job title. My place of residence. My possessions. My associations. My dreams.
These are ephemeral definitions. I am learning that...the hard way. All these things have been stripped away, bit-by-bit.
My chosen career path requires an ability to travel and current circumstances do not allow this privilege.
I am unemployed. One of the first questions people ask when meeting them is, "what do you do?" I don't have a job, thus I have no job title to identify with.
I currently live in the basement bedroom of a friends home, in a city I would not have predicted I would reside. I find it difficult to answer questions about "home." I don't feel that I have one. I haven't had one for years and don't know if that will change.
I sold the majority of what I owned to lighten the load when moving overseas. When returning to America we liquidated again and are the proud owners of a few pieces of furniture (not enough to furnish a one bedroom apartment) and a few household goods (which are still in Africa in embargo).
My relationships are limited in our new city. I have no professional network here. The majority of my friends and family are elsewhere. In our new circumstances, I often feel very much dis-associated with other people or places.
In my old job I was living the professional dream, but I quit my job and am struggling to know what's next in that arena. The personal dream of being a mother is outside of my control and remains elusive.
When these things are stripped away...career, job title, place of residence, possessions, associations, dreams...who am I? That is what I am asking myself these days.
Without these things - who are you?
Just Sheri, (apparently) experiencing an identity crisis
Yep. Uh huh and Amen, Sister. I feel like I've been stripped down thrice in life thus far. I'd like to think that I have learned this lesson, the lesson of identity in Christ, once and for all. However, with my track record, if I begin to draw my identity from what I do and what I have, I can be sure that God will send the winds and rain to wash away all the sand so that I can build my worth on Christ alone.
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